Yeah, I did a journal sweep. :\ I kinda deleted the one from yesterday. I also lost my journal coding. D: I thought I saved it...O__o I'll just use a pre-made or something. Unless someone is willing to make me one for free. But I highly doubt it, and I don't anyone to waste their time on me.

I've been thinking. I don't think I like Jazmin the much anymore, I know I don't like Ace that much at all. I'm thinking of keeping Jazmin, but making a new horse character for myself. I don't know though. I can't seem to think of anything creative, and I've had a hard time drawing lately, and I feel like crap for using other peoples lineart. Bleh. Maybe I should make it Casper. What do you guys think? I like her a lot. She sorda represents me, but not as much as Jamin. I think Jazzy is too plain and she may just need a make over instead. I really don't know. Whatever, I think I'll just keep Airheart close to me, and just worry about her instead.

Yearbook signing tomorrow. Will I have the guts to get Steve to sign it? Prolly not. :\ But I'll try. I think Tim might. But yeah. He's being dickish right now.

So today, I tried to squeeze out of him why he decided to leave me. So I sit across from him in study hall and try to smile, I sorda said "Hi". He just looked up and started on his history again. I go "So...you're mom okay now?" He said "Yeah, she was just really pissed from comming back from Ireland and having a lot of work to do..." I'm thinking: That's not what you said yesterdayyy. D: *stabs him in my head* Then he sees my reaction and probably thoughy "Ah shit, I'm in it now. Shit hit the fan." loookkk: Anyway, I go "Uh. So, why did you want to be just friends...?" He looks at me for a long time and doesn't say anything so I throw out some things I thought of last night "Is it because you didn't think we were getting that far...?" Nothing. "Do you think I'm ugly......?" Nothing. "Do you hate me?" He laughs a little then nothing again. "Were you're parents mad?" NOTHING. He said nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing. It was pissing me off. "You can tell me..." I said, he just looks at me. In my head: DAMN ITTT. GAH! JUST TELL ME! YOU STUPID Y CHROMOSOME!! DDD: *end head* He just says nothing. So there's a looooooong silence. He's doing his history. Then he says "Have you finished your time line for history yet?" DANG IT. Everyone asks me that. D: Anyway, I go "No." He says "Me either." I said (XD) "I only have like...5 dates." he goes..."Me too." I'll do it like this for now: (bold is me, un bold is him *action quotes are...actions...or not actions...*)

*Another long silence*
"Are you doing anything this summer?"
"No. I don't do anything for every summer."
"What are you doing this summer?"
Me in my head: WTF did I just say? O___o
"...Nothing. O__o Except for maybe volenteer at the boys a girls club..."
"I hate that place."
"Me too, but...you know...it's the only thing I can find."

So yeah, all this shitty small talk and long silences for the rest of class. Never again did we mention why he did what he did. Maybe tomorrow, or some day. Who knows. I'll get it out of him, somehow. *manical* xD Just kidding. I'm feeling a little bit better, but he's driving me nuts. So is Steve. I still like him a lot, sadly. He still hates me, I'm pretty sure. But he's a little better than before. Everyone agrees that I'd look exactly like him if I was a guy. I think, in our past lives, that we were some how...connected. Like siblings, or lovers, or something. And our past lives are trying to bring us together. But those are my stupid and shitty beliefes. I don't believe in heaven and hell, it's too simple, and everyone does a bad thing or two in their life. Some more than others...

Bye. D: DANG IT. No more sleep tonight, I guess. O_o